I AM PAMELA

28 November 2009 @ 12:49 am

(:

life's been pretty cool recently.
shopping, cycling at ecp, having pool sessions, watching movies.
pretty much the summary of all the fun activities after the end of op.
AND YES. i finally learnt how to cycle! :D

another class outing on mon. before i'm off to australia on sun.
how cool is it for my sis to graduate on the same day as my birthday? :D
it's gonna be fun and memorable. (:

-pam♥
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i guess, you gotta know this.
that i won't be around when you turn back.
maybe in the past. but not this time.
it's just tiring to try so hard when you're giving up.
but this doesn't mean. that i stopped loving you.
i just learnt, that i needed to love myself first before knowing how to love others.
and that i needed to be happy, even without you.

Tags: australia, fun, life

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29 October 2009 @ 10:50 pm

true.

today wasn't our day.

on special days.
all i want to do is to be with you.
and i don't want to be anywhere else.

hopefully, one day.
you'll realise.
that everything was true.
since the beginning.

-pam♥
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Who knows? Maybe one day we’ll be perfect for each other
-The OC

I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
-Ryan Cabrera (True)

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17 October 2009 @ 07:48 pm

whatever

yeah. i'll do almost everything for you.
and this time, it's letting go.

this few months.
i've been so busy being someone else.
that i forgot. how it felt to be myself.

it took me long enough to wake up.
and now, i'm back to myself.
even if it means losing some friends, i don't care anymore.
i just can't be bothered.

-pam<3

you're sickening.
this hot and cold game you play.
it ain't cool anymore.
and i'm not going to continue to be your puppet.
go ahead and perform solo
it doesn't concern me anymore.

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16 October 2009 @ 06:24 pm

beginning.

tired. yeah.
i don't know.
there's just so much on my mind.

things change.
people change.
everything change.
and.
i really don't want to be living in the past.

~~I'm tired of living in the past because I know it's impossible to rewind and go back in time.~~

so we're back at square one?
cos i won't hold on any longer.

-pam<3

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07 October 2009 @ 04:17 pm

runawaytrain.

Let go of the things that can no longer be fixed. If you keep trying to put them back, things will only get worse. Holding on is being brave, but sometimes moving on makes you even stronger.

It’s you. You’re the one I talk about all the time. The one whom I can’t stop thinking about. The one who can make me laugh even when I don’t even want to smile. The one who can make me feel better in seconds when I’m down. It’s you that i’m crazy about.

I’m sick of meeting all the wrong people. I’m sick of being lead on to believe it could be right. I’m sick of being told “lets just be friends.” I’m sick of people saying “it’s going to happen” when nothing happens in the end. Its not that I’m impatient, but really, just when will I meet the one who’s truly meant for me, and who wants to be with me as much as i want to be with him?

-runawaytrain

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23 September 2009 @ 07:27 pm

not this again.

this time, i'll be smarter.
i'll stop first.
before history repeats itself.

maybe i'll miss that chance.
i don't know.
all i know is that i really don't want to go back to that time.

-pam<3

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19 September 2009 @ 02:30 am

at the beginning.

the last act.
the final deception.
the hardest thing to say is goodbye.

i guess, in the end you'll start thinking about the beginning.
about how everything started.
remembering all the happy memories and stuff.

that happiness lasts momentarily.
along brings reluctance to let go.
so... don't go back.
just look forward.

-pam<3

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17 September 2009 @ 11:29 pm

(:

school's cool.
nothing much.
LOL.
i don't actually know why i'm posting this.
cos it's really random stuff.

sometimes, it's the small little things that make you happy.
i want to eat donuts.
i want to talk to you.
i want to do cool stuff.
i need to mug.

-pam<3

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31 August 2009 @ 10:21 pm

please.

please, let me make it through.
i don't know how long i'll last.
but please, give me the strength to go on.
for as long as i can.
and the best efforts i can give.
at the end, i know i'll be there.
waiting.

-pam<3

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21 August 2009 @ 11:55 pm

home

from chris daughtry's song "home"

Well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old,
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

just felt a certain affection for this song.

home will always be the place you know you're safe in.
and that your family will be there for you no matter what.
even when you spread your wings out to fly.
someday, you know, you'll be back

-pam<3

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11 August 2009 @ 12:40 am

artistic mood.

pw meeting today.
discussed a while.
and silently mocked at others.
then talked. LOL.

-pam<3

i'm missing you.
afraid that i'll lose you to time.
endless chattering becomes deafening silence now.
i know it's over.
and i'll let go.
i just want you to know.
i loved you.

the memories together.
it hurts to remember.
yet, i don't want to lose them.
because at least then,
we were happy.

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12 July 2009 @ 02:10 am

idk.

it's weird.
i was looking at my previous entries.
and how i changed.

life's still cool. at least i guess.
but the happiness i had seemed to be replaced by insecurity and doubt.

those memories which i keep close to my heart.
accompanies me through the worst of days.
yet, it's the reason why i can't move on.

i guess. this's life.
life's an irony.
and it's how you decipher it.

-pam<3

PS: su! you're 17 years old and 13 minutes old. :)

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09 July 2009 @ 09:06 pm

addiction.

i'm addicted to this song.
i don't know why.
and... this song's by by2.
although i don't really like them, this song kinda fit into my style of song.
._. annoying. LOL.

so here's the lyrics.
我知道你还是爱着我 --> sounds kind of self-obsessed.
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我 --> this line as well.
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

-pam<3

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08 July 2009 @ 07:17 pm

HEE

i haven't posted anything for ages.
and... yeah. :)
still alive.
though almost bored to death in school. >.<
i doubt anyone still read my lj. LOL.

anyways, holidays passed like a blink of an eye.
and it's true!
i was like o_O
HAHA.

there's actually nothing much to post about.
:D

sometimes, it aren't your best friends who you miss the most.
it could be anyone around you in the class.
cos they're those you don't get to see. anymore.

-pam<3

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12 May 2009 @ 09:53 pm

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朋友之间,最糟的不是每次吵架.
最糟的是, 连吵都不想吵.
因为, 心里根本都不在乎.

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25 April 2009 @ 12:09 am

so much to do.

co's busy.
but i kind of enjoy co more now.
don't know why. but AJCO, JIA YOU!
there's gonna be SCH rehearsal on sun.
hope it all goes well.

school's been ultra-busy.
but i'm settling well. at least i think i am.
anyways, 01/09 will be going out on labour day!
YAY!

at times, i feel like i'm living in the past.
thinking of secondary school friends and the one month spent in australia.
it's like i can't move on.
i guess i want to cherish the memories so much.
that i'm unable to move on.

missing you, jie!

-pam<3

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07 March 2009 @ 10:05 pm

thoughts.

okay.
so i just realised my last entry was like 2 weeks ago.
which seriously isn't too long ago for me.

HAHA.
the thing i hate most about jc?
PE. guess you hear that a lot, huh?
anyways. school's been cool.
and i guess i'm settling down.
except for one thing.
i can't help but feel really sleepy after 12pm in school.

4E2'08.
i really miss you all.
we may not be the most united class.
but i just miss everyone.
even the gg gang. just everyone.
it's only now, that i realise. you're all different in my eyes.
thanks for giving me the best memories i ever had.
i'll never let go of them.

-pam<3

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16 February 2009 @ 10:50 pm

please.

jc's starting.
and yeah, it's not that simple as wearing another set of uniform.
things are beginning to heat up.
and tension's increasing.

perhaps i'm just stressing myself out.
but i don't think so.
please, let things turn out well.

i don't like this insecure me.
i really don't.

and my dreams of the june holidays? shattered.
cos exams are gonna start term 3, week 1.
please please, let me get through.

-pam<3

i try my hardest, but to no avail.
i really don't want us to be that way.
i want our friendship to be that special.
for life. and i'm still believing.

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29 January 2009 @ 11:32 pm

...

it's the lunar new year.
but it feels kind of weird this year.
perhaps it's nothing actually.

thinking, or worrying about the posting results tomorrow.
there's so much insecurity.
aish.

i'm thinking about so much.
~~but it's nothing important.~~
i want to go anderson. :(
there's so much i want in my life.
but i don't want to change anything. at all.
i love everything here.

i miss you! but you'll be back next week, and 6 months for good.
loveyou, loveyou, loveyou.

-pam<3

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01 January 2009 @ 10:03 pm

MOVIE WORLD

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

YAY! after days of lazing around and making excuses about the weather -- it was a fact that it's either too rainy or sunny here though.
i went to Warner Bros' MOVIE WORLD.

it was HOT HOT HOT when i reached.
and i wore my new dress, for more excitement! :D
(cos i was like o_O at the 2hours plus journey)

( so here's movieworld! )
PS. my sister wants me to say that i forgot to take pictures for her, cos i was too excited in taking mine.
cannot blame me! my first time there :D

Tags: fun, movie world, play

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